I can't imagine what the world would be like without you,
The thought about it scares me.
I don't want to know what my future would be like without you.
I dream of growing old with you.
Yes, you hurt me,
but maybe unintentionally ...
Or maybe you did what you did just for the sake of hurting me.
I don't know if I can forgive you,
But,
I still love you. And I miss you so much.
My heart cries for you,
And it feels like there's a hole that only you can fill.
I try to deny the fact that I love you just to save myself from being hurt more,
And to avoid more tears,
But it never works.
Unfortunately,  my dreams are killed every time I realize that this love cannot be.
We are both different and we have different aims.
We live in different lands,
And have different life styles,
Not to mention, different beliefs.
I wish everything were mutual and that we could be together,
But it seems that it's much more impossible every day.

You slipped away from my hands like everyone else,
You've found someone new,
someone who wants to take you
And make you theirs.
You like this person
And she likes you.
I hope she never hurts you,
And I hope she treats you the way that I wanted to treat you
...or better...
I hope she truly sees how beautiful your smile is
And what an amazing person you are.
I hope she writes you better poems than I do.
I hope she pours her heart out and gives you what you truly deserve.
I hope she doesn't just want your body
And I hope she never leaves you out in the dust and deserts you.
I hope she always makes you smile,
And never makes you cry.
I hope she fills your heart
And never breaks it.
May she bring out the best in you
And make you the happiest person in the world.
I hope you are happy.
I love you so much, if I had to sacrifice my own happiness so that you can be happy with someone else, I will.

Things My Heart Wishes It Can Scream Out Loud

You're the most beautiful things I've ever seen
Nobody or nothing will ever compare
There are other pretty faces
And other pretty souls
But none are as beautiful and pure as yours.
You have beautiful eyes
A handsome face
A lovely body
A beautiful heart of gold
And a soul as pure as the water from the fountain of life in heaven
A light will always shine around you because it will always reflect your kindness and will show the world just how amazing you are.
You're so beautiful to me,
You are my light and my world.
You are like shining diamonds, rubies, and gold in a beautiful treasure chest.
Your heart is as big as the sky
And clear as the Jordan river.
You are one of God's masterpieces
inside and out.
There are millions of people in the world, but you're the only person that I have eyes for.
My heart keeps calling your name, but do you hear the call?
Your name is as beautiful as a poem written from the heart
And your very existence is like the most beautiful song ever known to mankind.
Sometimes I'm afraid to look at you because my eyes are unworthy of seeing such beauty.
Sometimes I refuse to say your name because my tongue is unworthy of saying the most beautiful name in the world out loud.
Sometimes my heart goes so crazy,
I do things that I've never thought I'd do,
Or I would say the most nonsense things ever.
These words may come from a complete nobody like myself,
but I just can't hide what my heart wishes it could scream out loud.

I cant wait to spend the night with you.
We've waited for so long...
Soon the moment will come,
When I'll be yours and you'll be mine.
When our bodies embrace each other and we hold on to one another as if we were hanging on for dear life.
We will make love all night long and no one will stop us.
As you cleave unto me,
with every move,
and every thrust,
we'll be closer than ever.
We will feel each other like never before.
Your naked body and mine,
two bodies,
Two hearts soon to become one,
Our souls will bind together
and it will be like that forever.
Hopefully the beginning of a new, and beautiful era.
Together, we will write a new chapter in our book of life.
Hopefully it'll be the first night together of many more nights to come.

You squeeze the blood and emotions out of my heart.
You give that adrenaline rush
that can kill me in an instant from committing an act of total insanity.
You make me happy,
But you make me sad.
You bring a smile to my face
and tears to my eyes.
You cover up the hole in my heart, but then again, you dig deeper and deeper into a void that cannot be filled.

Dearest Poet

Take your pen and blow the dust off of it...
Use your heart and mind to bring forth a beautiful combination
of words unspoken that need to be said.
Let out those tears and emotions if necessary...
Let me hear your voice through a sheet of paper,
and feel how rapidly your heart beats as you spill its contents with fresh ink.
Take me on a journey and show me what's on your mind,
What you've been feeling,
What makes you happy,
What hurts you.
Why you smile or why you cry...
Set yourself free!
Show the world your beautiful talent that you were given at birth to share with everyone,
Dearest poet.

Dark, Poisoned Rum

Dark, poisoned rum
From my shelf into my glass
Sweet sorrow runs through my veins and flows in my blood
My dying heart
Slows down its beats
The blood stops flowing and turns into
Dark poisoned rum
Dark poisoned rum
Dark poisoned rum
In my veins
Dark poisoned rum

Sunday Afternoons

I'm feeling nostalgic again
as the rain pours over my head
Walking down the street this Sunday afternoon

It seems like everything is perfect,
should it be?
It seems like everything,
everything's complete.
Complete...

But my heart convinces me that something's missing
I'm missing the highlight of my Sunday afternoons
Baby, baby its you.

Rain or shine, we'd spend Sundays with each other
Seeing you was my favorite part of the day.
15 minutes, 15 minutes to an hour...
You made me laugh, you made me smile
You made my Sunday afternoons.

I'm feeling nostalgic again as the rain pours over my head
walking down the street this Sunday afternoon.

A World Without You

I feel broken without you,
I feel like my world is going to end
Its a pain I should be familiar with
but its different because its about you
This tears my heart into shreds
and rips at my soul deep within...
A world without you is not a place that I could call my home
Your light is missing and it brings back the darkness into my soul that once plagued me
My once emerging smile has been erased now that you're out of my life
What can I do?
I cant live without you,
I feel so empty inside.

Your laughter brought a smile to my face
And your words brought comfort in the darkest days
Your light banished the heavy fog that blinded my heart
You were like an angel sent from above to guide me
To make me feel complete
You were like an angel sent from above to make me feel like I had a right to love someone again...
But now you're gone,
I doubt you'll ever return,
I don't know what I did to drive you away
Now that you're gone,
I long your return
And hope your light shines upon me again...

A world without you is not a place I could call my home,
Your light is missing and it brings back the darkness into my soul that once plagued me
My once emerging smile has been erased now that you're out of my life
What can I do?
I cant live without you,
I'm so empty inside.

Three Drops Of Blood

Three drops of blood make up who I am
Three drops of blood from distant lands
Three drops of blood shed with pride,
German blood, Swiss-Italian blood, Spanish blood,
Three drops of blood from my ancestors passed on with pride
Three drops of blood make up who I am

My heart is numb and I cant feel the pain We've grown further apart, but I cant feel it. These eyes of mine won't cry for you. Yes, I gave up. I learned that I wasn't made for love. I learned that it's not worth it. I learned that I have had enough, enough of this heartbreak. I lost all hope, and yet, there is a smile on my face. I keep my head up high. I'm moving on. My heart no longer aches at the fact that you're too good for me, and I'm not good enough for you. I love you so much, it's time for me to set you free. So, I'm kissing you goodbye, I wish you all the best. I hope you're happy and you find someone that loves you and is better than me. You deserve the best... Goodbye.

One In Six Billion

I don't know what my heart is feeling
I don't know why it feels like this
My heart goes crazy at the sound of your name
Though my feelings for you are now dormant
Sedated by the anguish of pain.
Out of six billion people on earth,  I choose you.
Its a feeling I still cant explain,
There are so many people in this earth,
But out of those six billion, you're the one.
Though it seems that the odds are against me,
And that being with you is impossible,
I still feel like we have a chance.
If your heart beats exactly like mine
Then I should let you know that you will never be my prince.
But you will always be my king.
You are one in six billion.

There is not a single second in which I'm not thinking of you.
You cross my mind all the time,
You're just so unforgettable.
Its hard to get my mind off of you...
My heart longs for you.
It calls your name day and night,
But it never receives an answer.
How long should this go on?
My heart's cries fall on deaf ears,
And its actions were for blind eyes all along.
I question whether or not you deserve everything I do for you...
Or maybe I'm wrong.
Maybe I'm the one who doesn't deserve you.
You're much better than me in so many ways,
there's no comparison between us.
In my eyes, you're pure perfection,
nobody or nothing comes close.

You

I don't understand it.
You say that girls look right through you...
How could they ever miss out on such an amazing man like you?

There's nothing wrong with you.
You're so amazing!
You have so many qualities,
I honestly don't know why girls don't see that...
They're so hard to miss.

You have a beautiful smile as bright as the sun,
Gorgeous eyes that sparkle like the ocean,
A pure heart filled with only beautiful things.
A soul so precious, and so kind...
and perfect like clear skies.
And the face of an angel.

Your future is bright.
Someday, your name will be in lights.
You will hold your head up high
and you will raise your arms and shout
"This is who I am!
I'm strong,
I'm beautiful and nothing could break me!
I'm unstoppable! "

You're just so amazing like that.
Its so hard to believe that someone as special as you could ever exist these days.
You're like a perfect work of art.
You're everything a girl could ever want.
You are loved and desired,
and don't you forget it!

You Came To Me When I Least Expected

You just showed up out of nowhere when I thought my heart was cured.
I saw you as just an extra person, but I was mistaken.
You slowly came up in my thoughts unexpectedly.
I was troubled in a way, but learned to rejoice.
How in the world did this happen?
I didn't know I needed someone like you.
Someone I could eventually trust completely.
Someone I didn't know I wanted.
Someone who just came to me when I didn't ask.
You took me by surprise.
I didn't know that someone like you could ever exist.
You just walked into my life
and when I thought you were just "a person,"
Life showed me that I was wrong about you.
You turned out to be more than just "a person."
You became someone very special.
I just cant come up with the right words to tell you exactly how I feel.
My insecurity robs me of that ability.
And in a way, so does my conscience.
Its like what people say...
Something good comes to you when you least expect it.
You came to me when I least expected.
To be honest, I wasn't looking or you.
I didn't have the slightest idea that someone like you existed.
You never crossed my mind
Until you walked into my life,
Slowly,
With every day that passed
you didn't just walk into my life.
You walked into my heart too.
If god exists,
The day he brought you into my life,
He showed me that he still cared about me no matter what, despite my transgressions.
And I am thankful for that.
I never knew that the things people told me in the past were true.
I thought that they were fairytales they made up.
But you proved me wrong.
You brought your light into my life when it was shrouded in the veil of darkness.
I never knew that I could grow a special kind of affection for a random person that made their way into my life
Now I just hope that you keep staying in my life
and never leave.
I hope I make my way into your life and I impact it the way you impacted my life.
I hope this story never ends.
If I had a way with words, I'd tell you everything I've been holding back, and more.
Maybe I could write you the sweetest poem that's ever been written in the history of mankind. You deserve it. :)

The day you found me, I found you. And I hope that one day, you can become mine, and I can become yours.

The Valley Of Suicide (Under Cyanide Skies)

Note: This poem reflects on my dark past

This sadness is going to kill me.
I don't know what I want,
and I don't know what to do anymore...

I am walking towards the valley of suicide
picking razorblade flowers
under cyanide skies.

Should I drown myself in the lake of eternal death?
Maybe.
Or maybe I should keep walking
and meet my self inflicted demise around my neck from the tree that bears forbidden fruit and forbidden dreams.

Bullets have never tasted as sweet as these.

I choose to rest here in the valley of suicide.
With razorblade flowers on my grave
under cyanide skies.

Aqui

Aquí...
Aquí estaré esperandote
Toda mi vida yo te esperare
No podré partir lejos de aquí.

Aquí fue el lugar donde te conocí
Aquí fue el lugar donde te bese por primera vez,
Aquí, aquí..

Aquí,
Aquí estaré esperandote
Toda mi vida yo te esperare
No podré partir lejos de aquí

Aquí fue el lugar donde discutimos
Aquí fue el lugar donde te dije que no me buscaras
Aquí, aquí...

Aquí fue el lugar donde yo cometi
el peor error de mi vida de dejarte ir
Aquí, aquí, aquí...

Aquí
aquí estaré esperando te
Toda mi vida yo te esperare
No podré partir lejos de aquí.

Ya te olvidaste de mi,
Ya nunca jamas vendras aquí
Regresa conmigo aquí...

Aquí
Aquí yo estaré esperando te
Toda mi vida yo te esperare
No podré partir lejos de aquí

Aquí....

The Forbidden Apple of Eden (God's perspective)

You stare at the tree in front of you and your eyes lead you to a shiny red apple.
Perfect shape
Perfect size
Perfect color
Perfect shine
It is the most delicious apple you've seen in your entire life.
But wait....
You cant touch it!
Well why the fuck not?
This apple has forbidden knowledge that no one should know.
Its a very tasty apple...
Its the tastiest apple you will find in this whole fucking garden!
You are welcome to eat the others... They are pretty tasty too...
Just don't eat the fruit from that tree! I don't give a shit who tells you that its OK.
Trust me!
You will pay if you take a bite out of that apple.
You will suffer!
Trust me! I'm not being a selfish asshole that leaves the best for me.
I'm just protecting you.
Really.

[Un] True Love

There is no such thing as true love.
True love is only a fairytale.
This fairytale was a fallacy concocted to keep dreamy little girls giddy and excited only so they could come to the cruel reality that the love they read about in books was nowhere near existence in real life. 
Yes, when they are grown up of course...

Yes. A man may give you roses,
Give you chocolates,
Tell you that you're everything to him...
But at what price?
Laying in bed naked while being stripped not only of your clothes and your hymen but also of your dignity and pride?
And the reward you get is a note saying in other words that he had a great time doing you, but he doesn't love you and desires not to ever see you again. A note... If you're lucky.
Or you only find that empty spot next to you where he left you desolate and in great despair and heartbreak.
True love is bullshit!
There is no such thing as a knight in shining armor,
There is no such thing as a damsel in distress,
Roses, chocolates, love letters, poems, teddy bears and all that other shit...
Either he wants you forever,
Or he wants you for a few hours.
Its so hard to read them..
Most of the time they just want to play overnight.
Such scumbags they are...
We want love and commitment,
But they just want sex.
Nothing else.
The tale of true love is just a tale.
Its good for books,
Not for real life...

I Hate Being In Love With You

I hate being in love with you.
I hate the feelings I get every time you cross my mind.
I hate the way my reality spits at my face and says
"Give it up bitch, its a long shot!"
I hate the fact that there are other girls that have won your heart.
I hate the way my heart skips beats whenever I hear your voice
I hate how I dream about you every night and when I wake up you ignore me and don't remember that I exist.
I hate the fact that I've sobbed over you in my bed, not wanting to get up and give myself a chance to embrace every new day.
If I love you, why do I hate being in love with you?
Shouldn't I be happy and not feel my heart aching?
Jesus Christ! Why?
I love you so much,
But I cant keep breaking my own heart loving you when I know full well that I will never be with you.
I just fucking hate that!
But still, I cant stop loving you.
Yet, you don't deserve my poems,
You don't deserve my tears.
You don't deserve my feelings
Or my innate fears.
You don't deserve my heart
Or my devotion.
I'm giving myself away to you when you don't deserve it.
I should be investing in someone who truly loves me and truly cares about me.
That person that truly deserves it.
I hate the fact that I love you.
But why can't I stop loving you?

What Have I Done?

What have I done?
How did I hurt you?
Though I've never said
"I love you"

Every time I say those words
They cannot be lies.
I swear it in my heart
That its how I feel for you.

I love you
Though I've never said those words
Maybe its my pride,
Maybe its my ego
Maybe its my fear
Fear of losing you.

I try to show it in every way
With every little detail
But I guess its not enough.
Maybe I should be more detailed.

What have I done?
How did I hurt you?
Though I've never said
"I love you"
My love is true
And its just for you.

Is It Right?

I love you,
But I don't know if I'm doing the right thing.
You are my friend,
It just doesn't feel right.
But it doesn't feel wrong...
If you become my lover,
I hope it lasts forever.
And if it doesn't?
Not only will I lose a lover,
but I will also lose a friend.
So I ask myself...
Is it right?
Is it right for me to love you?
Or is it a sin?
Is it worth the risk?
But I just cant stop loving you. 

I Hate Being A Poet

I hate being a poet!
I hate how I use words
and not actions to express my feelings.
I hate being a poet!
I hate it when I am speaking,
and without noticing,
I rhyme.
I hate being a poet!
I hate it when my conversations have a certain rhythm
and try as I might,
I keep up with the beat.
I hate being a poet!
I hate that a certain line pops up in my head
and the sudden urge to write it down on paper
bothers me until it's done.
I hate being a poet!
I hate this fucking bursitis
That I get at night
After writing
A goddamn poem.

I- Hate- Being- A poet!

The Art Of My Love

Your body is like a canvas
a canvas in which I would
paint my kisses and my touch
with every stroke.
The texture of your body
adds perfection to
this piece that I create.
This piece that shows just
how much I love you
in every way.
My love is one of the most
unique art forms
and it's just for you.

Angel of Love

Angel of
Love, I'm
Still waiting
somehow for your
Light to shine around me
Oh!
Nothing compares to your
Kindness and
Joy 

Ангел из любовь

Ангел из
любовь, я
Ещё ждать
как-то да твой
Свет сиять вокруг меня
Ах!
Ничего не сравнится твой
Доброта и
Радость

I Fell In Love With A Dream

I dreamt of you last night,
I didn't want the dream to end. 
You stood right in front of me
With beautiful dark hair
And dark blue eyes.
Your face was lit with beauty
And your body was in the embrace
Of a long black trenchcoat.
Your hair was in perfect length
Perfectly styled.
And then I woke up
And realised that you weren't there.
You did not exist. 
Or maybe you do,
But we haven't met.
Though I've never seen you
Face to face
My heart longs for you. 
I fell in love with a dream...
Could you be real?

Florian

Oh Florian I still remember the way you laugh. I remember how wide your eyes grew in amazement while stargazing you smiled like a child, though you just turned nineteen and how you talked about a castle back home in Germany. I strummed my guitar and you played your violin. You sang a song about love and it struck me. We danced around by the campfire and slept under the stars. But you had to fly back home... Four years have passed and my feelings still haven't changed. You're getting married soon, and I'm still waiting for a miracle. Maybe its my fault for not telling you that I'm in love with you. That's why I'm writing you this letter. I strummed by guitar and you played your violin. You sang a song about love and it struck me. We danced around the campfire and slept under the stars. But you had to fly back home... Dear Florian, I will always wait for you. I still love you and I'm never gonna forget you. I fell under your spell. I hope you take this well. Come back to me, my arms are still open.

After the War

Rubble everywhere.
The brutal past cannot compare.
Our new beginning arrived
I cant believe that I survived.

We all made it alive
Will our newest hope thrive?
The war is over
It's time to start all over again.

Tonight I will rebuild my home
At least I know I'm still not alone
We all woke up from this nightmare
And now we ask ourselves if life will be fair?

We all made it alive
Will our newest hope thrive?
The war is over
It's time to start all over again.

During The War

The day we've been waiting for has finally come!
Our work against oppression will now be done!
We've been preparing for months, the stage has been set.
Now it's time to act on our freedom we will get.

Our many years of pain are now over (many years of pain)
The world will soon wake up and be sober

We no longer stand alone,
We can now take care of our own
and eachother one step at a time
We'll sing our songs in perfect rhyme

Our many years of pain are now over (many years of pain)
The world will soon wake up and be sober 

Before The War

I stood still taking beatings from my past
With my mouth shut.
These nightmares amassed
mark my soul right before it's cut.

I cant take it anymore!
What is this oppression for?
And if I stay
I cant run away.
I hid my feelings for many years
I wont let our woes fall on deaf ears.
A war is coming...

The blood of innocents stains your hands.
Many obeyed your insensitive commands,
everyone paid the price
of what your actions did entice.

I cant take it anymore!
What is this oppression for?
And if I stay
I cant run away.
I hid my feelings for many years
I wont let our woes fall on deaf ears.
A war is coming...

Daughter of Disgrace (Birthday Poem)

Unwanted
She was brought into this world.
On this very day,
the day her procreators never wanted to come.
The day their terrible secret would be out.
The day that would bring shame to their name.
And the shame lives on 23 years later.
The shame and disgrace that tarnished their names.
And not only their names...
Their families' names too.
If they would've had a boy,
maybe the problem would've been overlooked.
But no,
they had a premature,
weak,
frail,
unfit and undesirable
daughter.
A daughter whose life would bring
a never ending stream of shame.
Shame, embarrasment, woes and disgrace.
She was never pretty,
never popular,
never dressed "right"
never followed the beliefs her parents
tried to drill into her head,
loves men and women,
and the poor soul never wanted to change!
She was never what her family wanted her
to be.
Not even close.
The story repeated itself many years later.
But the disgraced daughter
saw things differently.
With an open heart,
and a smile on her face,
She welcomed her daughter into the world,
and she was not disgraced.

I am the disgraced daughter.
Though my family is ashamed of me,
I'm proud of the woman
that I have become.

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Im a nerd
and a goth.
I'm the girl
the world ignores.
Nobody knows my name
but I don't play that game.
I sit in the back of the class.
It's popularity I lack,
but I dont care.
And there you are...
Constantly surrounded by girls
with pretty eyes
and pretty hair.
You're very popular.
Everyone knows you...
So do I
Of course, it seems that
Im invisible to you,
but that is not always the case.
Unlike all the popular guys,
You're kind.
You're not a jerk,
You smile at everyone.
You want to be everyone's friend,
even mine.
But I also want to be more than your friend...
Im in love with you.
But, because you're constantly surrounded by pretty girls,
I dont have a chance.
I wish I could tell you,
but I'm afraid.
Im afraid of scaring you away
and losing your friendship.
Besides,
It would suck to be picked on for being with me, right?
Imagine...
A handsome popular guy
with a nerdy goth?
I wish for a chance to be with you
but it seems rather impossible.
We don't have much in common.
You go out and I stay in.
You play sports and I write poems.
You seem confident and Im too shy.
Everyone knows you and I'm invisible.
Girls chase you and guys don't remember that I exist.
Sometimes you forget it too,
but I dont blame you.
I dont exist. Period.
I dont care if I exist to anyone else,
As long as I exist to you,
That's all that matters.

I Miss You So Much

I miss you so much
Day by day
Night by night
Whenever I miss you,
it feels like a spring
with no flowers blooming,
and not a single blade
of grass growing.
A night sky with no stars
shining brightly.
A forest with no trees,
a branch with no leaves.
A river with no water flowing.
A book with no story.
A canvas with no brushstrokes.
A musical staff without a single note.
It's hard to put it into words,
but maybe you'd get an idea if you saw
the tears running down my face
every night I go to sleep.
Or is it still not enough?
This brain of mine never stops thinking of you.
This beating heart of mine longs for you.
My wandering soul keeps searching for you.
My empty arms need something to hold,
but you're not here.
Oh! How long will this torture last?
I miss you so much

Thank You For Being Who You Are

You are so beautiful
inside and out
You have a big heart
so kind and pure
You only want to bring
good things to this world
Your actions can change it
You help bring smiles
to everyone's faces
You make people happy
when they are sad
You inspire others
to believe in the impossible
You bring out the best
in everyone around you
You bring the meaning
of the words "love," "courage,"
and "friendship" to life
I know that one day
you're going to change the world
and make it a better place
You taught me that anything is possible
even when others say
that I can't do anything
I know why you do this
It's what you want
You can't help it
Life will reward you
many, many times
Thank you for being who you are

Unforgettable Night

We've just met and next thing you know
we let the evening unfold.
You took me home with you
and we were all alone.
You took me to your bedroom,
our clothes were on the floor,
we had our encounter in your bed.
Never looked each other in the eyes.
What's your name?
Where do you come from?
What's your story?
I know nothing about you.
What people who love each other do,
we did,
with no feelings for each other.
To satisfy our inner beast of lust.
I wake up the next morning
and I leave.
I know that maybe I'll never see you again.
I'll never forget what we did last night.
You were just a total stranger.

What an unforgettable night.

I Will Always Be With You

The day I leave this earth don't cry.
Don't feel bad for me
It's not the end...
My journey has just begun.
I want you to remember how much I love you.
I may not be here anymore,
but my spirit is still here.

Everytime the sun shines
it's me smiling at you.
Everytime the wind blows,
it means that I want to play with you.
Everytime it rains
I'm showering you with blessings.
Everytime you see a rainbow
it's me telling you that everything is ok.
And it also reminds you that I'm immensely proud of you.
Everytime it snows,
I'm giving you the best of me.
I'm very happy and I want to share that happiness with you.
Whenever you hear thunder,
I'm singing a special song just for you.
And I'm dancing too.
If you see a sandstorm,
it's because I'm laughing at you.
If it's a cloudy day,
I'm being lazy.
But it also means that I'm still happy.
At night when darkness falls,
I'm playing "hide and seek" with you.
If you see stars in the sky,
use them to ask me for a wish.
I will do my best to grant it.

I will always be with you, wherever you are.
I will never leave you.

If I Were A Bird

I wish I could grow wings and turn into a bird
so I could fly to where you are
 I'd like to stand by your window at night
and watch you sleep.
I'd like to wake you up in the mornings
chirping a beautiful song just for you.
I'd love to fly around your garden
just to see you take fresh air.
I don't care if I must withstand the hottest summer
or a freezing winter.
I want to be close to you.
I want to make you happy
even if I were just a bird.

La Vida De Un Poeta Que Sufre (Spanish Translation)

I will admit, even though Ive spent 15 years of my life learning Spanish and practicing it, this poem was tough to translate into Spanish from English. Spanish is my second language. I tried to do whatever I could to make everything sound good. I actually felt like I was having trouble writing it in Spanish and had to ask for a few translations! Oh boy! Here goes..  :) (P.S. Im currently working on the German translation. If I feel ballsy enough, i might even translate it into Finnish, Russian, Arabic, French, Italian and even Hebrew since I'm learning those six languages!)

Todos los días comienzo a buscar
A alguien nuevo en mi vida para que me vaya a lastimar
Es la vida de un poeta que sufre
La vida de un poeta que sufre
Es la vida que vivo...

Al parecer llega un día nuevo para llorar
O un día nuevo para fallar cada cosa que voy a intentar
Es la vida de un poeta que sufre
La vida de un poeta que sufre.

Todo el tiempo me enamoro de una persona nueva
Yo no les paresco, como quisiera saber
Nunca pensé que cosas tristes me tienen que pasar
Para escribir una poesía nueva
Es la vida de un poeta que sufre
La vida de un poeta que sufre
Es la vida que vivo.

Mi corazón tiene que estar roto para inspiración
Escribo poemas baratos en vez de hacer conversación
Es necesario ser burlada para que disfrutes lo que lees?
Cuando escribiré de "ese" momento especial?
Es la vida de un poeta que sufre
La vida de un poeta que sufre
La vida de un poeta que sufre
Es la vida que vivo.

The Life Of A Suffering Poet

Seems like every day's a new way to start
Looking for someone new to come break your heart
It's the life of a suffering poet
The life of a suffering poet
Is the life that I live.

Seems like every day's a new day to cry
Or a new day to fail every new thing I try
It's the life of a suffering poet
The life of a suffering poet.

Everytime I fall in love with someone new
They're never into me oh, how I wish I knew.
Never did I guess that sad things should happen to me
So I could sit down and write poetry
It's the life of a suffering poet
The life of a suffering poet
Its the life that I live.

My heart needs to break to get inspiration
I write cheap poems instead of having conversations
Is it necessary for me to get bullied for your reading enjoyment?
When will I ever write about "that" special moment?
It's the life of a suffering poet
The life of a suffering poet
The life of a suffering poet
It's the life that I live.
 

Hey There, _________________

(Note:) I wrote this song a while back for someone I am very much in love with. This person doesnt know how I truly feel because I've been too scared to tell this amazing individual. A friend of mine told me to tell this person before somebody else does and beats me. Well, what better way to do it than with a song I wrote for this person. In this song, Im pouring out my feelings for said person. The name is censored (I know, that's pretty bad of me to do that since I dont believe in censorship) for a few reasons. But, I wrote this song to tell this person how I feel about (him or her. Said person will also be ungendered) and what this person means to me. Wish me luck!  :)


Hey there, __________
Do you remember how we met?
Your kindness won me over.
Hey there, ____________
 Remember our first call?
5 minutes became 2 wonderful years.
Hey
There's a reason why you're in my life... (2x)

Hey there, _____
Your kind words forever made an imprint
in my heart
Hey there, _____
I'll never forget the day I gave you
a piece of my mind.
Hey
There's a reason why you're in my life. (2x)

Hey there _____
Your heart is as pure as ice
Your lovely smile outshines the sun
Hey there,  _____
Your eyes show what beautiful a soul dwells
within that body of yours so precious as gold
Hey!
There's a reason why you're in my life (2x)


Hey there _____
I have a secret I can no longer keep
I'm too frightened to reveal it
Hey there _____
Because of you I figured out
and learned my purpose in life
You became my inspiration
Hey!
There's a reason why you're in my life (2x)
Hey!
I'm so in love with you...

Hey there ______
It took some guts for me to write you this song..
I swallowed all my pride and I hope you're the one
Let me be the girl with whom you'll share your life
I promise to always be your friend no matter what.
Hey!
There's a reason why you're in my life (2x)
Hey!
Im so in love with you, won't you be mine?

Your Smile

If I could find the words to describe your smile,
I'd spend my entire life searching.
The right words dont exist in describing
How beautiful your smile is.
Your smile is different from others.
I would say that it is indeed a true smile
Not the fake smile that the everyone else wears.
Your smile brings light to your surroundings.
It goes well with your pretty face.
So innocent, but true.
It attracts all the beautiful things in the world.
Everytime you smile
you help make the world a better place.
The sun shines brighter
Skies are clearer.
Your smile gives people a sense of security
And it is also contagious.
Your smile lights a fire that burns forever and ever.
It is a sign of hope during uncertain times
And it reminds us all that maybe a higher power does exist and created us.
If I could try to put in words what your smile means to me,
I would be a fool,
For I would never find the right words to use to tell the world about it.
But I can still try to describe it in the most detailed way that I can.
You have a very beautiful smile.
You should always keep it
and never lose it.