I'm Gonna Cheat Tonight

(Note: I found this song yesterday! It's a song I wrote about 3 years ago... I think it's worth publishing in my blog, even though these are not my true feelings.)

I love my darling with all my heart,
but he only owns half of it,
I'm also in love with another man
it hurts my dignity...

I don't want to hurt my darling
but I desire the other man too
I share a bond with both men
I wish I could have them both...

I'm gonna cheat tonight
I love him too
they share my heart
they can tear it apart
I love them both
I'm gonna cheat tonight
What more is there to do?
I know it hurts him,
it hurts me too,
but I have to...

I'm in my beloved's bed now
enjoying the love we've made
I think about my darling
and the vows we've exchanged

I know I can't be faithful
but I still love him anyway
I can't make up my mind
But I wont let him get away

I'm gonna cheat tonight
I love him too
they share my heart
they can tear it apart
I love them both
I'm gonna cheat tonight
What more is there to do?
I know it hurts him,
it hurts me too,
but I have to...

But I know I dont want to hurt my darling
I dont wanna hurt my lover either
I slept with him, with my darling, and even
with a girl... this month

I may be unfaithful
but I have a big heart
a heart that loves evenly
I know it's wrong that:

 I'm gonna cheat tonight
I love him too
they share my heart
they can tear it apart
I love them both
I'm gonna cheat tonight
What more is there to do?
I know it hurts him,
it hurts me too,
but I have to...

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If only he knew just how I feel
I wouldn't be at war with my emotions
I'd be happy and free from this fear
a fear that enslaves me...

I wish he felt the same
about me...
I'd never doubt myself
or my love...

I'll write a letter so he'll know
that I will love him forevermore
and if he doesn't even care...
I'll leave forever and never dare...

and if that shame must follow me
I'll dry my tears
I will stay strong
and never care

A wise old friend once said to me
a man aint worth none of your tears
Just be yourself and have no fear
cuz you won't know who holds you dear...

and if that shame must follow me
I'll dry my tears
I will stay strong
and never care

I'll write a letter so he'll know
I fell in love with him for now
and if he doesn't even care...
I will move on forevermore.