Kulta

( I apologize if my Finnish is not good... I'm still learning, so I thought I'd try with this poem (I believe it's the second poem I've written in Finnish, maybe my third.. This one is quite special )

Olet makeutta elämäni
Sinun valo loistaa kirkkampana kuin tähdet
Lisäät enemmän merkitystä elamääni
Saan hullu kun sanot sinä rakastat minua

En voi odottaa olla sylissäsi

Rakas,
Sinä olet minun kulta
Minun armas.

Kun näen kasvosi sydämeni vain hyppää lyöntiä
Kun kuulen sinuttunnen puistattaa alas selkääni, miksi se on outoa?
Saan niin onnelinen kuin pikkutyttö kerta ajattelen sinua

En voi odotta olla sylissäsi

Rakas,
Sinä olet minun kulta,
Minun armas

Tunnen heikkas polvilleni ja haluan itkeä, kun päivä unelma teistä.

Rakas,
Sinä olet minun kulta
Minun armas.
Rakas,
Sinä olet minun kulta,
Minun armas.

The Healer

One day I ran so far away,
I was feeling the pain
of my detrimental heartbreak
Tears ran down my eyes.
I arrived at a beautiful place
a place like none
Ive ever seen before
I marvelled in awe
my weakness had me on my knees

and then I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder
I turned back to see who it was
He was a beautiful boy with the face of an angel

he looked me straight in the eyes
wiped my tears away
"I'm the healer" he said
"I will take away your pain"
He held me in a loving and warm embrace
his arms were tight around me
"I'm the healer" he said
"I will take away your pain
you will be just fine."
I will be allright....

(Will be finished later)

Thinking About You

I cant sleep at night.
Instead of dreaming in my sleep
I stay up and think of us
I swear it kills me sometimes
I'll never fucking have you

I think about how much I love you
I think about how much I miss you
I think about how much it hurts me
to be thinking about you....

Your words break my heart.
You'll never love me back.
I'm crying on my bed.
I just can't get you out of my head!!!!!
(I'll never fucking have you)

I think about how much I love you,
I think about how much I miss you,
I think about how much it hurts me
to be thinking about you
I think about how much I need you
I think about how much I want you
I need to get serious and stop
thinking about you...

Time will tell  (time will tell)
Whether you were made for me or not,
My heart waits forever
in agony!!!!!

I think about how much I love you,
I think about how much I miss you
I think about how much it hurts me
to be thinking about you
I think about how much I need you
I think about how much I want you
I need to get serious and stop
thinking about you.

God and The Devil Cry Too

If only you knew my tears are not enough
 to put out The lake of fire I reign "
 He says amidst his despair.
The enemy sits on his fiery throne recalls being cast out of heaven
all alone
all alone...
for he deserved it,he earned it.
The snake that tempted Eve
Up above in a city lined with gold
tears flow into the earth
on a specific Friday afternoon.
"Oh my children, what have you done?
I sent my son to relieve your faults"
a strong voice cries as clouds open up

Molten tears 

Run down the adversary's face

In this sea of flames that

Never end

To be continued... 

All Hope Is Gone

One day this will soon fade away...
I keep saying to myself in my dreams
But when I open my eyes,
I realize all hope is gone
all hope is gone
all hope is gone
all hope is gone
all hope is gone...

Dark clouds are moving into my sky
filled with gloom and sadness and horrible pain
I indulge myself in this darkness
the only place I call home

all hope is gone
all hope is gone
all hope is gone
all hope is gone
all hope is gone.

Help me,
I'm dying inside
I have nowhere to run,
I have nowhere to hide.
I think Im better off dead.

all hope is gone
all hope is gone
all hope is gone
all hope is gone
all hope is gone

Some Say

Some say I'm out of my mind,
others think I'm too hard to find.
Some say I'm too damn insane
but maybe they dont have a brain like mine!
Some say I worship the devil,
Oh, they might as well be careful!
Some say I dont have my shit together,
some say I will never find the light.

I dont care what they think.
I'll walk and keep my head up high.
Fuck these haters!
They envy my glory.
*shout*Go fuck yourselves!

Some say I'm too hard to swallow,
some say that soon I'm gonna die-ie-ie
Some say I only serve the devil
but my brain's a whole 'nother level-
Some say I'm always fucking high...
Well there's some shit the sheep oughta try-y-y

I dont care what they think,
I dont care what they say
I'll live my life and keep my head up high
cuz I live to be myse-e-elf.
I dont care anymore!

Our Heaven

Let me love you tonight.
Let me touch your naked skin
and feel you under my skin.
I want to wrap my arms around you
and whisper the sweetest words in your ear,
and tell you what I want to do to you
little by little
as I kiss you bit by bit,
and inch by inch.
I could never ignore
any detail in your perfect body
and stare at the ecstatic look
deep within your eyes.
I could hear my screams lost
within your moans,
and my breaths disappear
between your breaths.
I cry out your name
as if I were looking for you,
when I have already found you
and taken you in.
As I feel you going in and out
and feel the speed increasing,
my cries grow louder
and louder, and your moans
sink deeper and deeper.
My breath is nearly gone,
and you have run out of breath completely,
yet you are still alive.
The love we feed eachother is
our newfound breath
and our lifeline
in these moments of complete euphoria
and ecstasy.
You hold me tight like there is no tomorrow,
savoring every moment of this intense love
we are making.
I sink my nails deep within your back
and grasp you as if I were holding on to a branch,
trying to save myself from a fall that could kill me.
As your lips make way to mine,
your kisses get even more heated up my back
and into my neck as I could almost feel you bite me
and nearly devour my skin like a vulture would
devour its prey.
Your thrusts are getting harder and you are deep
in your penetration.
My breath is a lot heavier than it was when we began.
I've nearly lost my voice as I've whispered, moaned, screamed
and cried your name out loud.
I long for your kiss
as it makes its way to my lips.
They await your lips with angst
and pain as my entire body is numb
wrapped around your cold body
which is also numb.
You release yourself, but you're still
trapped inside my body
and you grant my wish.
I finally get the special kiss I've
waited for.
It was definitely worth the wait my dear.
You exit my body, but you still hold me tightly.
You tell me to relax, and I do.
This whole time, I've felt like I was in heaven,
but my heaven is really you.
Once again, and soon,
make my wish come true.
 

Run

Run!
They are against us,
don't fall for their petty lies.
Run!
They are deceiving us
their charisma is our demise....
They say that they're on our side,
but we are learning it aint true...
They are digging our graves
right in front of us,
and still we cannot see them.

Run!
They will devour us
they want to attach us to their strings.
Run!
They're raping our rights
and they're deflowering our dignity.
They hold the key to that secret door
a door we cannot see...
They hold a light with both of their hands,
but they are forces of the dark
They claim they're sacred but they lie to us,
They are demonic entities...

Many flocks of sheep
follow the trail of those wolves.
The trail leads to their death
as they slaughter them all slowly....

(poem:)

Should we fear them,
or should we face them?
Armed with our valor
we shall face our fears
and once that revolution starts
the real Light shall win
once and for all....

Happy Birthday Roman!!!!

I actually tried posting it yesterday, so, for some weird reason I couldn't...

Big shout-out  to Roman!!!

Happy belated birthday man!  (it was yesterday...)

:)

Cry

I know you're down and hopeless
and feeling defeated,
What is there left to do?
Just fear and cry.
I know you feel like your dreams
are nearly impossible
You feel like a bird whose wings
had been torn off.

You cry
those eyes as cold and blue
as the ice that surrounds my heart
which only the most passionate
of flames can melt it
Cry,
those diamond tears of yours
as you await a miracle
as you turn your eyes
to the heavens above.

Its hard to get back up when you're down
and hope seems like its only in your dreams,
remember to never give up,
because hope can move the strongest mountains.

Keep that flame in your heart well lit,
There is something out there
that will free you forever
because

You cry
those eyes as cold and blue
as the ice that surrounds my heart
which only the most passionate
of flames can melt it
Cry,
those diamond tears of yours
as you await a miracle
as you turn your eyes
to the heavens above.

Hope is on the way
You've got potential darling,
Dont forget that I will always
believe in you.

You cry
those eyes as cold and blue
as the ice that surrounds my heart
which only the most passionate
of flames can melt it
Cry,
those diamond tears of yours
as you await a miracle
as you turn your eyes
to the heavens above.

I'd Hate To Be You

Sometime ago you told me you loved me,
You said you couldn't live without me,
You saw yourself with me five years from now
You left and now she owns your vow

But the pain you left me with is gone
To you a new pain shall dawn...

Everytime you hold her
You'll wish she were me,
Everytime you kiss her
You'll wish she were me,
Everytime you touch her,
You'll wish she were me,
Everytime you fuck her
You'll wish she were me
All the tears I've cried
won't be in vain,
I will make you cry
and feel my pain.
Oh, I'd hate to be you right now...

One day we will cross paths again
You'll be with her, and I will be with him...
You'll want her to be me,
You'd kill just to be in his place, with me...

Everytime you hold her
You'll wish she were me,
Everytime you kiss her
You'll wish she were me,
Everytime you touch her,
You'll wish she were me,
Everytime you fuck her
You'll wish she were me
All the tears I've cried
won't be in vain,
I will make you cry
and feel my pain.
Oh, I'd hate to be you right now...

One day you will scream my name and shout,
Your desire for her will for sure fade out,
You'll want me back, but it will forever be too late...
Dont think of me again for I'm gone, it was fate.

Everytime you hold her
You'll wish she were me,
Everytime you kiss her
You'll wish she were me,
Everytime you touch her,
You'll wish she were me,
Everytime you fuck her
You'll wish she were me
All the tears I've cried
won't be in vain,
I will make you cry
and feel my pain.
Oh, I'd hate to be you right now...

Unstoppable

Look everywhere around you
this is your world,
you're among these wretched souls
in misery and pain.

Leave it all behind,
run away from life
run away from that contagion
and forget about it all...

Don't let it get to you
Don't let it fuck with you
Let it go...
Raise your voice and shout:

Look at me,
I'm unstoppable!
I'm am alive and well,
nothing can stop me!

Look at me,
I'm unstoppable,
I'm alive and well,
No denial about it!

All the might in the world
fuels determination
to reach out for
your coveted desires

Let it posses you
let it become you,
No doubt about it
raise your voice and shout...
Look at me,
I'm unstoppable!
I'm am alive and well,
nothing can stop me!

Look at me,
I'm unstoppable,
I'm alive and well,
No denial about it!

Jurgen

You wake up this morning and realise
you're alone.
Last night she told you she loved you
and now you meet her lies.
Tell me dear Jurgen
what would you do?
You knew I was ready
for you.
But you wanted her...
you loved her
But she lied to you.

The world feels like it's at its end.
You have no purpose
I know how it is...
Heartbreak killed you inside.
Tell me dear Jurgen
what would you do?
You knew I was ready
for you.
I could never break your heart.
My love is true.

Dry your eyes my love.
Start your life again,
forget about it all
Put the past behind.
Start anew...

Tell me dear Jurgen,
what would you do?
Now you know
I'm still ready
for you...

How Could You

Everywhere I go
I look around and find
how the world can deceive me.

I feel like I'm stuck in a dream
a dream that's never ending,
a dream that I dream in my dreams.

The next morning I wake up
the the cruelest reality.
Nothing's perfect now...

How could you ever lie to me?
How could you hurt me in
such a gruesome way?
How could you ever fuck with me?
Tell me everything's ok...

Yesterday you loved me
and now you fucking hate me
Was I still stuck in my dream?

Your lies opened up my eyes
I see the truth, obviously
I'm not so stupid after all.

I'm not so easy
I can't be lied to
anymore... And now you heard me!

How could you ever lie to me?
How could you hurt me in
such a gruesome way?
How could you ever fuck with me?
Tell me everything's ok...

Enough with your lies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angel

If angels couldn't fly
would they still guide you tonight?
Do they really protect you from evil
do they make the bombs go away?

You're opressed I know,
Have no where to run,
nowhere to hide.
No shoulder to cry

Wipe your tears dry my love
We both know tomorrow
may never come.
May never come...

Find shelter and hide
in an angel's wings
Your feathery shiled
will protect you.

The bombs may never go away...
This bloody war won't stop.
It should rain tonight,
but all you get are bullets and shells...

You've heard screaming,
you've heard people cry,
those are your memories
for the past year...

Hide with your angel
The wings will shield you
It's warm embrace
will give you peace

I Dont Know How Pain Feels Anymore

Baby, I'm heartless
as you can see
I have no emotions
'cause I don't understand
I just can't see the way
I hurt you.
I can't feel the pain
you feel...

And it feels like I don't really care.
It feels like I lead you to despair
It feels like to your heart I'm unfair,
You deal with this pain you can't bear
Because I don't know how pain feels anymore
No, I don't know how pain feels anymore.
Anymore....

I've made you cringe,
I've made you cry
I hurt you bad
and don't know why
you still love me
through it all...

And it feels like I don't really care.
It feels like I lead you to despair
It feels like to your heart I'm unfair,
You deal with this pain you can't bear
Because I don't know how pain feels anymore
No, I don't know how pain feels anymore.
Anymore.... (2x)

Это Вам

Я не могу большe скрывать мой чувства к тебе

мое сердце тоскует по тебе

Но ты чувствуешь той же

Когда я вижу твое лицо

мой глаза вкусу сладкий мед

Когда я слышу твой голос

мой пропускает сердце бьется возбужденно

Каждый раз, когда я вижу тебя улыбаетесь

Солнце светит и освещает тьму мою

Всякий раз, когда ты здесь

Я чувствую, как красивые цветы

цвести в саду жизни

Если бы только у меня была сила, чтобы сказать вам,

как сильно я тебя люблю ...

Бы Вы чувствуете то же самое?

Это Вам          

This Is For You

I can no longer hide my feelings for you.
My heart longs for you.
But do you feel the same?
When I see your face
my eyes taste the sweetest honey.
When I hear your voice
my heart skips beats in excitement.
Everytime I see you smile
the sun shines and brings light into my dark.
Whenever you're here,
I feel like the prettiest flowers
blossom in the garden of life.
If only I had the strength to tell you
how much I love you...
Would you feel the same?
This is for you.


 

I'm Gonna Cheat Tonight

(Note: I found this song yesterday! It's a song I wrote about 3 years ago... I think it's worth publishing in my blog, even though these are not my true feelings.)

I love my darling with all my heart,
but he only owns half of it,
I'm also in love with another man
it hurts my dignity...

I don't want to hurt my darling
but I desire the other man too
I share a bond with both men
I wish I could have them both...

I'm gonna cheat tonight
I love him too
they share my heart
they can tear it apart
I love them both
I'm gonna cheat tonight
What more is there to do?
I know it hurts him,
it hurts me too,
but I have to...

I'm in my beloved's bed now
enjoying the love we've made
I think about my darling
and the vows we've exchanged

I know I can't be faithful
but I still love him anyway
I can't make up my mind
But I wont let him get away

I'm gonna cheat tonight
I love him too
they share my heart
they can tear it apart
I love them both
I'm gonna cheat tonight
What more is there to do?
I know it hurts him,
it hurts me too,
but I have to...

But I know I dont want to hurt my darling
I dont wanna hurt my lover either
I slept with him, with my darling, and even
with a girl... this month

I may be unfaithful
but I have a big heart
a heart that loves evenly
I know it's wrong that:

 I'm gonna cheat tonight
I love him too
they share my heart
they can tear it apart
I love them both
I'm gonna cheat tonight
What more is there to do?
I know it hurts him,
it hurts me too,
but I have to...

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If only he knew just how I feel
I wouldn't be at war with my emotions
I'd be happy and free from this fear
a fear that enslaves me...

I wish he felt the same
about me...
I'd never doubt myself
or my love...

I'll write a letter so he'll know
that I will love him forevermore
and if he doesn't even care...
I'll leave forever and never dare...

and if that shame must follow me
I'll dry my tears
I will stay strong
and never care

A wise old friend once said to me
a man aint worth none of your tears
Just be yourself and have no fear
cuz you won't know who holds you dear...

and if that shame must follow me
I'll dry my tears
I will stay strong
and never care

I'll write a letter so he'll know
I fell in love with him for now
and if he doesn't even care...
I will move on forevermore.